Terkadang, ke-emo-an gua diuji. Pernah gua emo masa darjah 5 sebab Fikri Ahmad ejek nama bapak gua. Ambik lu, tapak kasut sekolah Kiki Lala gua kat baju putih sekolah lu. Pernah gua emo masa main galah panjang waktu rehat sekolah agama darjah 2 sebab Idzham lempang gua tiba-tiba. Ambik lu, gua kejar bagai nak gila sampai lu tersembam kat jalan tar. Pernah gua emo sebelum peperiksaan percubaan Kimia sebab Yazid panjat dinding intai gua ber'bisnes' besar. Ambik lu, gua dah tak kejut dah lu subuh-subuh.

Petang ni gua emo lagi.

Baki akaun: RM12.54

Masa 1st year, gua tengok brader ni macam brader tabligh. Muka putih-putih, suci. Pakai spek. Tinggi. Suara lebih satu octave ke bawah daripada normal stail hos Misteri Nusantara. Gua bukan la takde pengalaman bercampur dengan budak-budak agama macam ni, tapi sejak gua bertukar scene jadi punk rockers (perasan gila babi), gua start berkawan dengan budak-budak otak gila-gila macam Fadh dan Mahazmi.

Gua teringat dulu masa 1st year, setiap Isnin brader ni pakai macam salesman Kopi Jantan kat Kampung Parit 10. Baju kemeja panjang stail iron tajam. Seluar slack hitam pun iron tajam. Boleh luka kalau jalan sebelah. Tie pun brader ni pakai.Sarung henset kat pinggang tu pun brader ni pakai. Nasib baik tak pakai set blue-tooth kat telinga. Gua bukan tak tau Isnin adalah smart day. Tapi gua remaja yang mahu make the most of his teenager life. Jadi, masa smart day gua pakai baju kemeja flannel kotak-kotak, jeans, siap dengan tuck-out nyer lagi dan pakai sneakers. Nasib baik fakulti kita tak banyak pak guard berkeliaran kan, brader?

Tahun demi tahun, gua tengok brader ni makin gila sikit. Dah boleh nak join gua hu ha hu ha dah. Ajak main futsal pun takde masalah. Usha-usha makwe pun makin rajin. Kadang-kadang, gua tak pernah-pernah kenal nama junior cun-cun, brader ni dah kenal dulu dah. Belajar main gitar pun pakai Youtube. Hebat betul.

Dear future 30 year old me,

How are ya? I'm fine here. How is it going? Well, I'm okay I guess. Hey, guess what? I've just had a lovely lunch with a pretty girl. A total, ultimate girl-next-door, you know? Anyway, here I want you to check a list of things I have accomplished by 30 years old, okay? Ready? Here we go:

1. By now, you should have married a totally gorgeous young lady with the most awesome smile you'd ever see. It's a bonus if she has pretty long hair and cook you delicious jemput-jemput every Saturday evening.

2. By now, you should at least have figured out what kind of business you wanna establish. Then, by hook or crook you have to find an appropriate fund to make it a reality. A laser tag center would be awesome. Plus, it would be a whole lot more awesome if you are the 1st Malaysian ever to build a laser tag center in Malaysia. But, if you are still working at some lame, corporate sellout chemical engineering company, just throw yourself off a cliff because you suck!

3. By now, you should drive a kick-ass MPV with hybrid engine. Not some lame-ass Japanese sedan.

4. By now, your mom and dad should have already went to Hajj at Mekah Al-Mukarramah. If they still haven't, then cancel number 3 immediately and drag your ass up to Tabung Haji Umrah & Haji Travel and book their name for next Hajj season. That's priority numero uno. (Oh, I should have put this as number one but never mind)

5. Last but not least, you should have your own band that plays punk rock or revival punk-rock by that particular time. And you should already have an awesome Fender Precision bass with Matt Freeman signature on it

And remember Lars Frederickson once says 'the harder you come the harder you fall'. Keep pushing yourself to a whole new level because you're awesome! 

Love, 

20 years old you.